Flickering Candle Flame

    Bloggers, I've been pondering about why, or for what reasons, someone decided to let me in on secrets that I had no knowledge about, or that were subjects of interest to me. Especially when I was never schooled in any formal public setting, and never school about any highly polished old or new  Philosophies on any subject. Like I have stated before, I was just living out a life of crime and violence, and I was intent in out smarting The Law, that's all. I hung out with like minded people and did time in Correctional Institutions with the same types, and survived the best way I could. I was offered a deal of a life time in 1969 to join the Military or serve twelve years at the Texas Department of Corrections, and being an easy choice to make for me, I gladly volunteered to serve in the Military. In October of 1970 I was shipped to The Republic of Vietnam as an Infantryman and there made friends with soldiers from every segment of our then crazy society. I have to admit that my favorite people in The Army where I served were Draft Dodgers and Hippies. I had hung out with criminals but never these type of people. They came from the Deep South; The North; The East; and The West, parts of America. They came in all colors and creeds. And these guys were smart. But, they had their bad habits too. And some that the hippies turned me on to was marijuana, opium, hashish, L.S.D., and heroin. In all my twenty years of life I had never used these drugs before. Even my White friends from the South were doing drugs. And when they turned the psychedelic music on, and I had taken some Orange Wedge Acid tablet, I didn't know what the hell was going on in my mind. It seemed that my whole reality was melting right before my eyes. Then strange apparitions appeared out of nowhere. I would see huge Red Bulls charging at me as I sat in a circle with some of the guys on the ground. And I would jump screaming and yelling at them to run because of the charging bulls. And I would run and as I did they just laughed among themselves and say, "Mr. G" is having a bad trip. Then I would come back and sit down again and this time an old big Black Train like from the 1870's was charging right dead at me. And so I just jump back and landed on my back and my friends just kept laughing at me and saying, "G," you're gonna be alright man." Then again in another Trip on L.S.D. I was eating my food and I just couldn't eat it because my food had turned into hundreds of maggots. Then one night as I sat all alone outside I saw a man descending from the night sky who was naked, lookin like the Vitruvian Man spread eagle facing me. This man had bat wings spread out and had two horns on his head and he was descending on a huge rope looking spider web. And he was flying down when I saw him and he was now about 50 or 70 feet away. His net and body were like a dark black shadow or silhouette. So, I just got up and walked away back in my tent. Now that was my first encounters with mind altering drugs and they would become part of my daily life until 1980 when I was sent to T.D.C. the first time. And like all functioning drug addicts and alcoholics I learned to live with these symptoms although I know that no one knew about my nightmares and the fear and dread of them every night when I went to sleep. How do you deal with life's traumas and then self medic to escape that reality and invite the pleasures of mind altering drugs to ease your pain. Ask yourself, why did so many American G.I.'s turn to alcoholism most of the time during their careers? Since then I never went back to psychedelic drugs. After 1982 I finally quit marijuana, booze and pretty much all my bad habits. The other bad habits dealt with pornography for a short stint, but I had to give that up too. "God" dealt with me about that also so don't ever think that "He" doesn't have "Eyes" everywhere. So, I have been pretty much clean except for some anger issues with men who just can't see anyone free and at peace with himself and others. It has been good to live clean because it is a good feeling and I have enjoyed it for many many years now. However when I dream, I have some very supernatural dreams. And this has continued since those eye opening days when I was in Vietnam. And in these dreams I hear Voices speak to me in many languages and I am baffled by what I hear. And at times not even Google can help me find answers. So I go to people from Cultures and Countries that I think these voice sounds like and ask complete strangers if they are acquainted with this language. Like for example back in early 2000 I heard a man's voice say, "Um Rehe Gi (Gee, Ghi), and that was all. Then I found a man from India or that area and he said that it meant, "God" in The Highest." Then another man's Voice asked me, "Ruben, does Time run in a straight line?" And I said, "No, it curves at 35 degrees." Then he said, "Time curves like a cup." What did I say guys, I don't know diddly about Mathematics, Geometry, Calculus, Physics, Chemistry, Medicine, Engineering, or Quantum Theory or its Mechanics. I know little about Philosophies or Astronomy. Yet, I come to understand that Gravity and Accelerated motion warps Space and Time which curves and waves in space. Therefore nothing in our Universe runs or travels in a straight line. I believe this because there is some connection to what is happening in the Spiritual Realm in The Cosmos with what is happening here. Because when I related the dream about when The Local Police in my home town put a warrant out for my arrest here, when I was already locked up in prison, it demonstrates that The Physicist Bohr and John S. Bell's theory on Quantum Entanglement was more than possible. And furthermore, finding out that Hippie Physicist who called themselves The Fundamental Fysiksists Group with John Clausen came in in the 1970's from Berkeley and advanced the field of Quantum Entanglement and Mechanics. That story is incredible to believe. And they did it through Mathematics and Eastern Mysticism and the drugs they were on. History of Science like general History hides great Truths about how some of the knowledge of technologies have truly come about. I known that there is more I can say about my commentaries about these things, but I hope to explain later about that. And in closing, what we find out; if you are one who truly seeks truth, is that Ancient Philosophies and Philosophers knew these things about the Spirit World, and but we were not not allowed to view those histories because they were meant for Aristocrats only, not insignificant people like me. But some did not want to give credit where credit is due for The Creation of the Universe and The Earth also. And so the philosophers became The Mythographers and hence we have so many Religions and Sciences. And now Science wants us to believe their unbiased Empiricism and objective observations. Their goals say they are gonna be Revolutionary and life changing and make life better for all of us. Yes, first they will kill Christianity, then anyone who will not accept their New Atlantis and their new Philosopher god King. Oh, things will not be the same then, not anymore, thanks to modern Technologies. America has played with fire for so long now that its hard to believe that we are still viable as a Nation. We have burned our candle down so low that the poor flame on its remains... is flickering and gasping for breath. Let me leave with one more man's voice that I heard in a dream way back in the early 2000, he said, "The Cherubim are Keepers of The Flame, and only One of Them maintains The Fires in Hell!"  Man!, Just One Cherubim? Now that is Power! But that is what he said. Let's sleep on that for now  because I am very tired of my hike yesterday and I am wishing that I was healed from all my body pain so I can enjoy my woman just one more time. And I do believe that our thoughts and actions can effect and influence outcomes in our life. I call it having constant unwavering Faith in God and believing that I have received it and that's it. My faith has become my lifestyle now. And my Hippie friends I will always love forever. It was an awakening experience for me to have shared six years with them in the Army. They thought me so much about the spirit world regardless whether it was not a Christian one. Well, neither was I at that time. How can anyone compare the good from the false one if one is never exposed to the two opposites. Thanks again.                                                     Respectfully,                                                                                                                                         Ruben N. Gutierrez