Speak now or forever hold your peace

     Hey comrades out there in the trench holes, it looks like many dark clouds are gathering all around us, and it seems that they are getting closer to us now. And the war planes are up there flying in their wedged formations too and seems that they are angry at someone, and are going to do harm way out there. And as I walk with a friend down below underneath these guys on planes, I see that we are heading in the same direction, And as they are going out to accomplish their missions, I am on my way to accomplish my mission also. I don't know what my friend and I are talking about as we walk out on wide open country and at night. All I know is that it is dark, eerie, and gloomy because of the darkness all around. We can hear the loud engines of the hundreds of planes above us, and so I stop to look up at them and my friend does also. Then I say to him, "Man, those guys are going off to war." And he responds and says, "Yes Ruben, its War." And then we come upon a long dug out trench running perpendicular just in front of us so we both walk down into it. Then I shake his hand and hug him and tell him that I have take to the right of the trench and go that way and that he has to take the left way because if we are about to get caught in the cross fires, there is no need for both of us to get killed. I tell him, perhaps one of us will survive this thing up ahead. And he sadly agrees and then we start to walk away from each other. But for some very strange reason I stop only a few feet away and turn back to see him, and as he is still walking away I yelled back at him and say in a loud voice, "Say man!; then I see that he stops in his tracks inside that trench, and without looking back at me he stands to listen to what I am about to say to him next, and I say, "Un dia Irma Duran va estar conmigo!" Then I turn and begin to walk away and I am still in that trench, and then I hear my friend yell back at me and he said, "Amen!" What I said to him was, "One day Irma Duran will be with me!" And he said, "Amen!" Even as I am coming to my very own end of the trail, and at 73 years old, I don't give up hope regardless what my circumstances are, or have been, or will be, I just keep on fighting and don't give up. Regardless what my mind tells me, it doesn't matter at all, because even if my mind tells me that I want to die, my spirit has its word to say in the matter also, and he doesn't want to die. So if my spirit refuses to die just yet, well he knows something that my mind doesn't know. Therefore, I tell people the old adage that says, "It's not over until it is over." And until then, we have work to do. And I know that my line of work will not please everyone, but please be informed; as it should be clear from my writings, that I don't live to please everybody because that is an impossibility. All I intend to do is present my stories and dreams, and let the chips fall where ever they may. I didn't set out to offend anyone because I am not geared that way. I believe that I have done my home work well and that if I didn't, you guys can verify by just researching what I said. I do not apologize for what I believe in or how I came upon my revelations about the evil and perverseness of our Political and other Government Officials, and people in general. I include myself in that bunch and do not consider myself any better than anyone one else in this World. Nevertheless, I will not deny that many Religions are and were created by man, or human beings. Hence those are false religions. And what I have said about the Talmud and apostate or reprobate Jewish Leaders and their evil Banking and Religious practices is true. These people share the same goals of the "Ancient God hating Apostates like Nimrod, Cush, and Ham, who were intent on destroying every semblance of "God" and "His Holiness." Like the great Nimrod, these aim at achieving The One World Government and Religion, and Bank  System. That is what all these philosophical and religious wars have been about. Its been a giant dialectical psychological mind game that will result with this man made outcome. And they believe that it will be a grand Utopia right here on earth and not like it states in The Bible. These are greatly delusional and are in for a big surprise. So that is why I tell these stories of mine before I make my exit. And just like I cared for my non conformist friends in the Army, Prison, and Reform School, I care about those who are on the fence lines who are looking for the True Way. I also present my story to confirm that The "God' of Israel is "God of gods." The Jewish Apostates notwithstanding, I know that "God" is warning all of us that we need to get ourselves and family matters taken care of. "God" will deal with Israel as "He" said that "He" would, but "He" is gonna deal with us too. I am accountable for me only, but I have a moral obligation to my family and to everyone else as well. So I have to warn people of the dangers of losing one's way. After all Spiritual matters are not to be taken lightly. The Apostates do not take them likely so why should we. And now I am 73 years old, and it still seems that nothing has ever gone right for me, But I also know that I cannot stop believing in "God" and "Love between a man and a woman." I just believe that that has to be one beautiful blessing I would like to know and have before the egg cracks. And so in closing let me relate a short dream that I had just last night. Again, these dreams and their content just come without any advance warning at all. So, here is the dream. As the dream opens, I see myself standing and facing a middle aged White man who is wearing a three piece suit. The dream is in Black and White and it is set out in an open field somewhere in the countryside at night. As I am standing facing this man, he is talking to me and writing something on the dirt with a long stick in front of our feet. Then he stops writing and I see that he had drawn a rectangle and inside the rectangle he painted four white dots at each corner just inside this box. Then he had painted one single white dot at the very center of the four dots. Then he asked me, "Ruben, what does this symbol mean?" I knew right away that he was asking me a rhetorical question, but I answered him anyway. And I said to him, "The four dots at the corners is The Big Dipper, and the dot at the very center is The United States. Because the United States is suppose to be like The North Star Polaris..., it's suppose to be immovable." Then he tells me with a surprise in his tone of voice, "Ruben, how is it that an Ex-Convict and a Business man know these things?" And that to was a rhetorical question so I didn't answer him this time. And here the dream ends. Now a brief commentary and I will close for now. As one looks at the night sky in winter on a moonless night, and you look North, you will see The Big Dipper traveling in a circle around the faintly looking North Star. And keep in mind that throughout the ages past, many Cultures and People have developed mythologies about this seemingly ever present immovable star in that region of the sky. Christian are no exceptions, but in this point of view, beauty and appearance for truth is believable. It is said that "God, Creator of Heaven and Earth is a Type of Polaris or rather the North Star because it does appear to be the most stable of all stars because it hardly ever moves from its place there in that region of the Sky. Okay, now The Big Dipper, according to some Christion beliefs The Big Dipper is looked upon as being A Sheep Fold. The long handle being the corral or shoot a Shepherd drives his sheep into the safe corral. And the reason for placing the sheep in the corral is because the head of Draco the constellation is approaching close to the Big Dipper and is intent on killing them and The Shepherd. That is believable because that is only the head of Draco the Dragon and you should see its long body. It is said that the body covers one third of the night sky in that region. Further, there is Hercules in the very near vicinity of this two constellations and he is about to swing a wood club or baseball bat thing over Draco's head and is intent on killing Draco the dragon who is intent on killing the sheep. Therefore, all these symbols speak to; so say those Christians that claim that The Stars do Preach The Gospel Of "Christ Jesus," a story about A Woman who gives birth to a "Child" and Children who The Dragon hates and seeks to destroy. And those Children, or Sheep,  are The Jewish People. And it is them in that Sheep Fold and they are protected by "Their Shepherd" who represents The North Star. But as the Christians see it also, "God" doubles as another Type and in this case it is Hercules. But one has to erase Hercules and he becomes "Jesus Christ", not Hercules in this case. And how does The United States fit in this picture Ruben? Well, remember that The Scriptures say that "God" will hide the Sheep(Israel) and protect them. And "God" is "God" so "He" is always ahead of Draco and his gang. Over the ages from ancient time "God" has had a Nation prepared to take care of "His" people...The Jews. And "He" prepared America just for them to hide in because "He" would give them favor here. And have you noticed how much favor that is. "HE" said that the Deceiver and Deceived were "His" and that they all do "His" bidding whether they like it or not. But there is a problem now, The Great United States has gone Morally bankrupt like Ancient Egypt, Babylon, Greece, and Rome. They failed to read between the lines too. Yes, the United States was once immovable, but it has gone The Way of all the Great Empires where Israel has either prospered or perished. And the time has come when Israel will have "God Himself Only" to run to for their hiding place. America cannot even pay its Debt, and it has been on Life Support for awhile now and everybody knows it. We have been pushing our freedom and liberties beyond their true meanings and living way beyond our means. Now we stand on the edge of the cliff and The Piper demands his monetary payment for services rendered. And like I said before, Jeremiah Judah's Prophet said, " And I looked, and the Earth was void, and only darkness and smoke remained." So now let me answer the man's question about how was it that two spiritually illiterates like us could come to such understandings about this symbol. Well, it was in Academies way out there in those regions where only dreams and visions can take you. Thanks again Bloggers. Peace to all in The Middle East and us too; and to everybody in this great World. And I'll also say, I will be with Irma Duran soon and we will enjoy Life to its fullest and we will laugh and play and sing Praises to our "God" for all "His" great pleasures and Love. And for letting me go out with a big smile! Amen.                                Respectfully,                                                                                                                                           Ruben N. Gutierrez