Gold Circle, 666, and Sun Worship

Bloggers, when I was 20 years old and in South Viet Nam, I was extremely impressionable and was stunned by all the extra curricular activities that the outside and free world were hammering me with everyday and night. I had been locked up for 4 and half years in a Maximum Security State Reformatory for Boys and my childhood days had been confined to a small Barrio in San Marcos, Texas with a population of maybe 10,000 people prior to that. And the culture that I grew up with was Chicanos and Tejanos back then. And the music was beautiful and meant something to us. Especially music and songs by Isidro Lopez, Sunny and the Sun Liners', Little Joe y la Familia, Joe Bravo, Augustine Ramirez, Flaco Jimenez, Ruben Ramos, and many others. And that kind of Mexican music was what I grew up listening to. And I suppose that I was an exception among the Chicanos because I loved to listen to early Black Soul Rhythm and Blues music. And in the reform school when I was placed in an almost a complete Black School there, I really loved that music then. Then came The Army experience and very early in that 6 year tour of duty, in a place called Quan-Loi, I heard Three Dog Night sing, "I've never been to Spain" and I couldn't believe the thrill that I felt listening to those guys. And listening to another one of their songs titled, "Mama told me not to come," then I was hooked on that music. Then listening to Blind Faith song titled  "I can't find my way home" and then I knew that these guys were taking me deeper into the spiritual realms than I had ever been before. And what made this part of my journey incredible for me was that I was in a team of people who were trained to kill and destroy who ever was deemed an enemy of our Country. And keep in mind that I didn't make any conscious decisions in choosing the path that I was in. At that time I felt like how Jim Morrison of The Doors felt when in one of his great poetic songs "Riders on the storm," he said, '...into this world we're born, into this world we're thrown.' Well, I felt like that then, like there is no real direction, purpose, or rhythm or rhyme to my life. I felt like I was meant to lose and fail because some invisible hand has put me on this track going into this dead end street and built insurmountable walls high around me so that I can't get out. That's a bad way of looking at life but it did feel like that to me then. And there were other reasons that contributed to this negative way of viewing life then for me. And those reasons came from feelings of inferiority, insecurity, jealousies, and anger. I felt like damaged goods, like an Army Psychologist told me that I was after I got back from Viet Nam in 1971. Further, I still thought that I was ugly and dark skin and uneducated and incapable of retaining knowledge and I was like those wandering stars constantly going in circles and getting nowhere. And that has been my life experiences so far. It seems that we are born crying and we are gonna die crying. But at least there were many clouds that appeared in my life with bright silver linings now and then that made life pleasant and bearable. And there was even deeper levels of greater understandings of those seemingly aimlessly wandering stars in the sky to come for me. And no mind altering drugs or great psychedelic music got me there. But it was the pain and trauma, and the good and happy experiences, on the journey that helped me see what life was all about. And what seemed damaged goods turned out not so bad after all. Do you know, we may not like the path that we have been given, but I was told once by someone, 'Ruben, if your life work is to clean commodes, well be the very best at it damn it!' And that's how I see life now. It doesn't matter what others think of you or me, just keep doing what your doing and let the chips fall where they fall. At least I did something or said something to add spice to the conversation. And I know that my Politics or Religious views are not in alignment with other cultures Religions and Politics, but I only state what I believe and know from my readings about these subjects. The Androgyny subject for example is a topic that is of special interest to me too because of the impact that it leaves on the persons and others going through this period in life. It is a fascinating phenomenon to say the least. So at this point I will take you into a dream that I had several years ago circa the 2013 period. Here I learned further why my "God" rebuked me so bad before this time, when I got off track and got myself deceived into Sun Worship by an American Native Indian who told me that he was a Christian. And "God" told me in Spanish, "Let's see how many Sun Worshippers are left in the End!" So I turned away from Sun Worship fast. So please guys, there is much more that I am implying about this crazy youth period that everybody undergoes, and it is something that will speak to the origins of homosexuality and its originator and author of it. Okay, here is the dream. As the dream unfolds I see that I landed in some very ghostly and mystical place. The dream is in black and white and the setting is outdoors and at night. There is nothing out there except a high ancient looking stone wall in front of me with a narrow passage way through it and in the middle of this wide and about 20 foot high wall. The night sky is in view but I can't see no stars or moon out. However, I do see young boys that are teenagers in front of me and in front of this wall. Although their bodies are clearly human shaped, their bodies glowed ghostly like light ethereal matter, some call this kind of light electrum gilded light. As I stand at a distance of about 50 feet from the wall, I see clearly that a gang of maybe ten White looking kids, are raping a young kid by force because the boy being raped is trying to fight them off but can't. And the boy being raped has had all his clothes stripped off of him and they have him bent over. Then I start to go and try to defend the the boy being raped when a very beautiful young boy that was well groomed and nourished and about eight or nine years old walked up to my right side out of nowhere and spoke to me. And as he spoke in his baby voice he got my attention because he said, "Ruben, do you know that a Gold Circle equals 666?" Then as he starts to tell me another secret, one of the older boys in line to rape the guy being raped, looks back at us and over hears the boy telling this secret and he violently runs toward us and grabs the little boys right arm and squeezes it so tight that the little boy screams in pain and the older one cusses him out for revealing that secret to me. Then the taller and older teenager begins to ask him, "Why did you do that you little no good snitch." Then the boy answered and said defeatedly, "I didn't tell him nothing." Then the older one said, "Yes you did. Now get out of here!" Then the little boy left the scene and only the older boy and me remained. Then I  said to this guy who was as tall as I was and said, "The little boy didn't tell me nothing so leave him alone." Then the boy said to me, "Then get out out of here, you don't belong here anyway." Then he left and all the rapist and raped one disappeared from scene also because he was the leader. Then all that remained was the stone wall. And but now the wall had large circular holes cut out in two rows running across side ways and one row on top of another row. And inside these large holes in this thick wall were young teenage White boys curled up inside and they were all naked. And as I looked at these young boys I knew instantly what it meant when White people reference a "Hole in the Wall." This ends the dream. How sad that this is the case even today. And I don't blame the people that are gone that way, but I do blame The Fallen Angels for that. However, everybody has a choice to make about questionable Human acts that have serious consequences themselves. And I did research on what that little cute innocent looking boy said about The Gold Circle equaling 666. And he was telling the truth. Therefore, whatever The Micro Chip that is to replace all material cash money soon in our World will have the number of man, money, and the Beast. And since we know that Molech was a Sun god in ancient days; and since Molech is also Apollo and Atlantis, and Lucifer, the Gold Circle is not only money but The Sun too. Therefore..., there is something to sleep on, so let us sleep on that for now. And please don't say that I am ignorant because I am not. Some people will discover eventually why everything that they set out to do in their early work careers  never went right. And there was a reason for it, you were in the wrong field. What you were born to do will find you if you can accept it and be content with it, and enjoy it. Thanks again for bearing with me but all I want to do is help.                                                                                                          Respectfully,                                                                                                                                         Ruben N. Gutierrez