There is Value in my Dreams!

 Bloggers, for many years now as I study my dreams, I have come to realize that as these dreams pertain to me and my life experiences and psychological make up, as well as the spiritual condition that I may be in presently, they reveal mysteries and Truth about myself and the world around me. For example, as I began to watch my wife die at the hospitals here in central Texas for two and a half years, I wanted to literally die myself. I began in sincere truth to try to make deals with God and offer my life for hers. Every night during this time, that is what I would do behind our one acre lot after returning from the hospitals at night. Until one night in a dream God told me that it was not my time to die yet. And he told me to go my way and keep doing what I was doing. Then I still kept begging to die and I would get the same response. Then some time past and I had another dream. And in this dream I see myself working patching up potholes on a highway with my guide. He was a Mexican man too. The time was daytime and it was a nice clear day. Then I saw a white sheet of legal size paper floating in my direction from the South. The paper was flying about 9 or 10 feet off the ground and it was floating Northward in the wind. Then as this sheet came right over my head, I was looking up at it and I saw clearly my hand writing on it as it faced down for me to see it. And as I read silently to myself what was on the paper, a man's voice from the sky began to read it out loud simultaneously as I read it silently. And this is what it said, "I refuse to die, although I am walking in the valley of shadow of death!" So can you see that someone is trying to show me something here. Can you see that my Mind is wanting to die because I have lost my wife, but my spirit strongly disagrees with my mind and it wants to live. And so I know now that the Human Being is more than just mind and matter, but spirit too. Therefore, I learned something about psychology and about spirituality in this dream. Human beings have the potential to do great feats with the power of all three parts of their makeup. I have learned so many spiritual truths about supernatural phenomena that surrounds us constantly, and every where we go. And everything boils down to Two Paths or Two ways of applying these Truths or facts in one's own life. One Way in which one can acquire supernatural power is through the Pagan Ways or God's Way. In both cases one has to make a conscious decision whether to chose God's Holy Path or Satan's evil Path. Again, what I am talking about is what results as a consequence of what one believes in. There is The Right Way to produce results from faith and there is the Wrong Way. But because The Wrong Way has almost same kind of effects and outcomes, one outcome is Pure and Wholesome while the other Way is a copy or imitation of the Right Way, but Wrong and unholy. What I believe has the capacity to change outward and inward circumstances for the good is what Christians call Faith in God and His Ability. And moreover, they have to have faith in what they know and believe too. It is that simple. Otherwise the results that they are invoking from the invisible realm will not produce what they are asking for. Faith and Believing, and Action, are the Key Ingredients to get what one is asking for from whoever it is that they are calling on for help. But I call and talk to my God, The God of Abraham, Isaac, and Israel. Because there is nothing fake or unholy or sinful about Him. And I love Him. But, I have failed Him many times and that is why I have struggled for many years. Nevertheless, as I make my way to establish a stronger bond with Him, He teaches me through dreams many important truths that are written especially in His Bible. So now I know that the mind may want one thing, but my spirit reminds me that I may need to reflect on that decision for some more time because if I take the time to Consult God about my situation, He may not agree with my decision and have a much better way for me to handle that situation. And here I see that it is always good to consult God before hand about anything anyway. If I am seeking Power to overcome evil people in my life, I also know that it takes a great deal of discipline and sacrifice, and reading the Bible and praising God with all your heart and soul. And Fasting is extremely important in this respect. Remember to feed your spirit everyday with sound worship music and talk to yourself and tell yourself that you are everything that God has said you are. Don't put yourself down because remember that Words have Atomic Bomb Power. Your words can destroy or Bless, be careful with words because once they fly out off your mouth or Pen, you can't bring them back. And Supernatural Power is for real. I love it because once you see who you are in Christ Jesus, and what you are capable of doing just through prayer, it will blow your mind. I have undergone a lot of bad times, some times I thought that there was no way out of my predicament, but God made a way. His Word and Promises are true. I wish that I had learned them much earlier. And but I wasted so much precious time. And that is another one of those things that we can't bring back. Nonetheless, I learned..., and I just pass what I learned down to young people and let them taste for themselves what is Real and what is not. And what is lasting and what is not. I took it real hard before my wife died, and after she died. I always felt like a failure because she would tell me that I did more free work for lower income families than I did for her. And all her words that put me down I just ate them and could do nothing to change my course in life at that time. However, I remember a dream from June 24th, 2015 where I felt lost, and I couldn't find my way back to San Marcos, Texas. This was a long dream but I'll condense here. I remember that as I came to a small town here in Texas somewhere, I had this sense of urgency because I knew that I was lost. And as I walked into this town I didn't see anyone out walking around. And I just wanted to ask someone for directions to my hometown. And then I saw a White woman crossing a narrow street over into another small store and I yelled at her if she could tell me the direction to San Marcos. And she pointed West and was gone. Then I noticed that the sun was going down, and storm clouds were gathering; then it began to rain. And as I walked west out off this town, it got dark. So I stopped at a little store at the outskirts and I went in to buy some snacks for my journey west in the rain and darkness. And inside I met a beautiful White woman and she was the owner. Then she asked me if I needed to buy anything and I said, yes. And as I looked at their items I saw that this place was a produce store. And as I looked at the fruits and vegetables they looked puny and very tiny. I thought to myself that something bad had happened here. But I bought a few bananas and her husband began to talk from under the counter at front. She asked if that was all I needed and I said yes. Then the man said from up front, "Don't charge him full price, charge him only half price." Then she smiles at me and says, "That will be two dollars and fifty cents." Then I pay her and I asked her for directions to San Marcos, and she points west. Then I asked her for a ride to San Marcos and she did not respond. I asked again and she did not respond. So I say thank you and walked out the store. And when I did the water from the rain was getting higher and above my boots. And it was still raining hard. And as I looked west into the pitch black night, I worried about all the demons and devils out there. And I was worried also because the people at the store didn't have any plastic bags so I could keep my wallet dry. And as I started to walk into the dark street heading west... I felt completely lost because I didn't know how far San Marcos was. Then as I walked I heard a strong rugged beautiful woman's Voice singing from the dark sky to me and she said in Spanish, "Ruben, tu hacistes todo por Irma..., pero nomas te la pasaste juevandon con El." Here is the English translation, "Ruben, you did everything for Irma, but all you did was pass your time playing with El." This ended that dream. Now in the Old Testament God was called El. Some commentators also say that it was a name attributed to Satan. In my case it didn't matter who it was because the statement was a fact as far as I was concerned. Remember I said I had backslide when I was searching for artifacts. Well that was what was still taking place here; it was the consequences of sins regardless everything that I was doing to please the love of my life and helping others who were just like me in need of extra finances to fix their houses. My wife Irma put me down despite the fact that I knew I was doing everything that I could legally to get her out of the ghetto. And here Heaven is speaking to me that because of that effort to please my wife, all I was doing then was toying and playing with God because I was not committed to Him as I am now. However, I have learned my lessons, but too late. Too late because my sun is setting, and it is setting for everyone else too. Pero sin en bargo, ( Nevertheless,) My God is Beautiful and Merciful, and I can never become Bitter and Angry with Him regardless how I have been denied the better things of life. And furthermore, it is not over yet! And I know that better things are on the way for me regardless how dark and desolate it looks out there. God is my Immense Blessing and He has never let me down in spite of all my stupid and foolish decisions, and not taking Him Serious. A hora El es El todo en Todo para mi!" Christ Jesus is The All and All for me and He is for everybody too. People can reject Him, but not me. And with that I will close and say Let us sleep on that!. And remember always, if you allow yourself to Believe and have Faith in Christ Jesus, and take Action on what you Believe..., anything is possible. Amen. Blessings on your journeys in all your endeavors always if you are in Christ Jesus. Thanks again.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     Respectfully,                                                                                                                                             Ruben N. Gutierrez