Unfinished Business, Hopes, and Dreams!

 Bloggers, in communication courses a student is always taught to summarize the main topics of his talking points as he or she comes to the end of a talk. So that is what I am doing here before I find my final closing point to this Blog. All I can tell you is that as I look at my large study table in this small living room of mine, I see stacks upon stacks of legal note pads of powerful supernatural dreams that go back to 1982, and some even earlier, and I haven't even touched on them yet. However, I do want to finish other unfinished projects that are still pressing me to complete just so those so called Academics will not get away with their White Lies. And one of those projects is my ancient stone sculpture that I continue to find all over Central Texas on my Hikes. If you haven't gathered by now that I am a serious and dedicated individual, you have missed the point about who I am and where I come from. After all that I have experienced in this short life of mine, all I can say is that I have been on the receiving end of brutal brutalities at Correctional facilities and in the the Streets. And that was not what I had hope would happen to me in my life, but it did. Therefore, from a young boy until I was in my late fifties I continued to fight against all kinds of injustices that came from those in authority at the Government level. And I also found out through experience that our School systems were equally as corrupt and skewed against people of my kind, and that just made me angrier. And as I experienced all these negative effects from higher authorities in our communities, I saw how that these same cruel and corrupt people seemed very Religious on Church days and festivals. And these corrupt hypocritical people came from all kinds of skin colors. Therefore, after getting out of prison the second time in 1985, I set my mind and heart to try to Walk The straight Line with Christ Jesus. And I told Him that I would never go back to the life of a thieve or a criminal. I told Him that whatever I tried to do henceforth was to do legal honest work and try to provide for my family. But, what follow next notwithstanding my honest John approach to life, was pure hell until I won a case against The U.S. Government at The Veterans Affairs Department in 2005. Nevertheless, I had been self employed for 20 years and that work required doing extreme hard labor in construction. And it was hard testing of one's soul and spirit to live from one job unto another for that long. The V.A. back pay of 20,000.00 that I received from my case went directly to pay one third of our debt. And by this time I was deep into searching for Native American ancient Stone Sculpture of which The Institutionalized Academics in Texas and America claimed didn't exist and that was never ever made because the Indians didn't have the intelligence nor inclinations to create. Further, these said that no stone sculpture exist inside of The Borders for U.S.. So that White Lie catapulted me into this search to find these ancient artifacts. And besides, if I did find some amazing relics like these, I stood to make some extra cash. And as for the legal questions and issues governing these hunts, I had done my home work for that as well. Remember, that I have always tried to walk a fine thin line since 1985. So there, you can see that I still do have unfinish business with Liars and Deceivers to take care off. And I do have a large amounts of very old stone sculpture that early Indians or Humans of Indo-Asian and African descent made and left here. And this is my second batch of stash that I have accumulated because I destroyed the first batch because I got myself to worshipping spirits of the woods to find those. And it was this act that set me off on a shamanistic kind of journey and God got so upset at me for that, that He severely rebuked me for it and told me in Spanish, "Let's see how many Sun Worshippers are left in the End." But, this time I explained my reasoning for doing my hunt for relics again, and I said, I will prove the White Lies that they are Liars for their great injustice to the Indians, and I will prove that the Indians were all most likely Pagans and Sun Worshippers too. And I want to finish that story before I die. And also..., something that is more important to me than the Indian relics, is my dream about finishing off my life with a good Christian woman. I have met many beautiful and descent women and loose ones too, but none attract me like the one that keeps reoccurring in my dreams. I have met females that from the time that we meet we Click and she waits for me to make my move. But, I chicken out. And afterwards the woman in my dreams will appear in real life before me, and plays hard to get, so I leave her alone and do not chase after her. Her name is Irma Duran. And even last night she appeared three times in separate dreams that I had. I would love to spent some time with her alone and then some more..., and more before I go into my farthest journey off of this earthly evil Zubby Road. But, I have nothing to offer her. And at times I feel that at my age I don't think that it will work out. I remember one night not long ago that I was thinking to myself, "Ruben, what if you get with a woman and you can't work, what will you do?" Well, I answered myself and said, "I sure don't want synthetic aphrodisiacs like in pill forms that's for sure. And what I do want though, is for the act to be natural, and long and mature lasting, as it should be. And then several nights later without thinking anymore about a woman, I dreamed. And in the dream I was with three beautiful White middle aged females. And we were flirting with each other and touching each other and then I told them  that I had to leave. And as I was leaving this bedroom with the women, I came upon and older White woman in her 70's and she was blonde with long hair and built better than the other three women, and her face was everything I want in a woman. And she was dressed in a fine nice silky dress. So, I stopped to talk to her. And we greeted and she liked me enough to speak to me at length. And as I talked with her I said, "You know... I sure would like to have sex with you. You are beautiful."  Then she looked into my eyes and said to me, "Thank you, but, why don't you have sex with one of those women, they like you?" And I said to her, "Well, I don't know anymore if I can function because it has be so longs since my wife died." Then she looks at me seriously and says to me, "Ruben, if only you will allow yourself to believe, no matter what your age is..., you can perform like a lion! Only allow yourself to believe." And so as you can see from my writings in this blog, that there have many times when people or angels have come to my rescue in the nick of time to talk to me about Believing and having Faith in God and myself. And many times they fought and killed those trying to kill me and they protected me. And that is why I get my encouragement from God Himself because He confirms what the helpers He sends to my dreams tell me to do. Like take what this fine beautiful older White woman told me about allowing myself to believe. That was an incredible Dream people! Because Believing and having Faith doesn't only apply to impossible dreams, it applies for all things permissible this side of Earth. Nonetheless, what encourages me about what the woman said, is what I read about in the Bible about the Birth of Isaac. And the remarriage of Old Job to some woman after the death of all his family. It says Job had more sons and daughters with that new wife. And in the story of the remarriage of old Abraham with young Keturah, they had six sons, and the Bible doesn't mention daughters, but who know how many daughters Abraham had with sweet Keturah? Its these stories that lift my spirit up and fills me with hope when me and that woman of my dreams ever meet as more than friends one day. She will be the agent to set me on fire again and say, "Ruben get up!" And I will get up when she tells me to. And then I can keep recharging off her younger age, and then enjoy her until I die. But, before then I will perform like a live mature Lion with her like the White beautiful older woman said I would. And then I can rest and thank my God for His gracious and enduring Love for me and I will Praise Him everyday and night endlessly. Because He is worthy to be Praised for blessing me with so much that I didn't ever have before. And when I face my enemies, I will look on them as Joshua did, like as if I have already defeated them because God is my Helper and Protector. And if they surround me to attack, I will tear my enemies all down like never before..., in the name of Jesus Christ and by the great Power of His Blood. Amen. So Let Us Sleep On That for now. And I will allow myself to believe and have Faith in God Almighty and depend on Him for everything that I need because He is my All in All. And afterwards, Irma Duran and I will stand outside this old house and face East, as she grabs my right arm to hold on to me in great love, and together we will wait on Jesus Christ to return. Never give up, Never.                                                                                                                                                                                  Respectfully,                                                                                                                                                                                 Ruben N. Gutierrez