Temple Gate Keepers!

Bloggers, as I continue to live, I continue to struggle all the way through this seemingly long journey of mine. I am not 113 or 115 years old, and I hope I do not ever live that long. Because at 74 years old, I am beat by so much physical pain that God has left unhealed in my case, and I sure do not want to go on living an unproductive, and lack of quality of life for yet another 30 or 40 years. No Sir, No Mam, I don't care for a life that will yield more dependency on others to care for my physical attention. As I have mentioned before in other blogs, I do not want to be a burden on no one else, especially a female partner. If and when the time comes that I cannot take care of my own body, then I have to ask God to help me make my exit out of this place because I have lived out my usefulness. However, I am well aware that what I want, or need, may not be what God has destined for me. God may want to punish me some more or try me some more just to purify my soul in preparation for my entrance into heaven, who knows such things? All I know is that I have seen good people suffer from the time they were thirty years old all the way until their middle 80's with no happy ending to their lives here on earth. They died miserable deaths all alone and depressed. They waited on God for help and blessings and all they got in the end was even a slower death at a Nursing Home! Of which I am reminded about the story of God and Moses in which God tells a tired and discouraged Moses..., "I have borne you on Eagles Wings up to my Mountain." Therefore, who knows what God is doing behind those veiled curtains of His? So, that is why I put my trust and hopes in Him. Without Him I am nothing and a nobody. But, with Him I can fly when I can't walk anymore. And that is how I pictured my wife when she died, I pictured her on God's back being flown to that place she always prayed that she could make it to after she died. She wanted to be with God. Well, good for all those Christians who made it to Paradise. I just hope I get some consideration for my name being placed on the flight manifest when my time comes for that future flight heading to Paradise! As a temple gate keeper, I have done my best to live in obedience to God these last 15 years. I have tried to keep my body, soul, and spirit, in tune with God the Holy Spirit as much as possible. I have my ongoing problems with the demonic neighbors in this neighborhood where I live. And they get to me at times, and I seem to lose my reasoning abilities by letting anger enter my soul. And every time that anger fills me at these moments of rage, I can still hear my wife saying to me as she always did before we went to sleep, she would say, "Dad, don't let the sun go down on your anger!" What have you learnt Ruben..., from that?" Well, I learned that God is the author and finisher of our faith. He created the heavens and the earth for Himself and for those that would love Him and obey Him. Heaven is His Temple; the Earth is His dwelling place too. Thus, Human Beings that accept Christ Jesus are His Temple too. And as Gate Keepers of the temple of God, we should guard against any evil getting into God's House or Treasury, and Holy Things. What belongs to God should be Clean and Holy if we expect to live with Him regardless of what our circumstances look like on the outside for others. If God does not build the House, we labor in vain trying to build it on our own terms or in our own way. If God builds the House; City; Nation, etc., God becomes The Gate Keeper or Protector; or Guardian of that place. And my God is a mighty Warrior and there is no one like Him. And now He has assigned Christians as Gate Keepers to our houses and when we go to sleep, we will sleep well because He loves us. And as we sleep, He will not sleep because He will keep Watch over you and your household. Especially when we walk and talk with Him constantly every day and night. And especially for older people like me, whose life is more riddled with pain and restless sleep. However, even in that condition, then the relationship and time spent with God becomes even a longer and deeper experience because of constant prayer and worship of God. And by this time in your life... you will know that God is and was the only true friend and companion that you ever had throughout all your lifetime. So Let Us Sleep On That for now. Thanks again. Pray for the true Gate Keepers of God's Truth and Justice.                                                                                                                                                              Respectfully,                                                                                                                                               Ruben N. Gutierrez