He said, I don't walk that way!

Bloggers, all my life I have lived out there in the margins where no one even knew that I existed. At the time all those things didn't mean a thing to me. I was black skinned Mexican and poor, but I knew that I had older family that would provide for my needs just to keep me alive. Everyone that I knew in my neighborhood was fairing no better than me.  It was not until I became a teenager at 13 years old that I told myself that there was something wrong with me. And so, I became angry at myself for being who I was. And later, I found out that it wasn't only me that was the problem, but the White upper class in this Country. Then I went off on everybody and everything regarding this life on earth. It went so bad that I felt that not only was I formed way out there at the fringes of the sorry fabric of society that I was born into but was tossed out by all forms of society..., even my family. It felt like after having been thrown out by everyone... that I ended up in the land fill at the age of 15 years old. And even here at the Gatesville State School for Boys Land Fill in 1965-'69 I was forced to make decisions that were based on choosing Sides. All my life I have had to make choices about who do I want to be associated with insofar as a group of people are concerned. In the reform school and all the other Institutions that I have been a part off in my life, I had to pick a side; the idea of being neutral was not an option. However, as I matured and became more educated and hung out with wise people, I made better choices in my life. I am still out in the fringes of society, and no one knows who I am, yet I am content to know who I am. I am content to know what I have become and what I have learned, and where I have been and have done. I have made good choices and bad choices along the way, but I am holding on to the way that I have been walking thus far. The wisest choice that I have made over the last 11 years is to walk closer to God Himself and learn from Him. Every day I keep learning something new from the Bible. And I marvel at how God speaks to us directly to our spirits when we study His Word. And He amazes me by what He shows me in my dreams. We may not all hear God speak audible while we are conscious, I know I don't, however, He speaks through other circumstances and means. I am glad that I chose this way of life for me. Because as I said earlier, God guides all our footsteps and leads us in the most- safest way back to Himself. Many people believe that all Paths lead to God, but they are sorely mistaken because all paths do not lead to God, not the True God! The other day for example I was at the Barbershop in Lockhart, Texas. And I was talking to this 82 year old successful White man. And there were other older successful White men there too. And as I talked to the older man, he related to me his whole life story in brief, and he said that he had succeeded because of who his dad had been. He said that even while in the Air Force he had flunked his flight school and failed at being commissioned yet he said that he had given the right answers to the instructors for why he should be given another chance at the courses; not once or twice, but several times until he was accepted. His rest of the story went along this same theme. At the time I was the only Mexican in the Barbershop besides the barber. And so, as I was getting of the barber's chair this older 82 year old White man addresses the other White men there and asked them if they were "Masons." And they all nodded their heads immediately and said, No. Then the old White man said to one of the other men there, "Well, you should join us, and we will make you a better man!" Then the older 77 year old farmer in blue jean overalls answered the well to do flight instructor and said, "Well, I just don't walk that way and don't want to!" Then I said happy Thanksgiving to all of them there as I was leaving, and wondered..., why didn't the old uppity White man ask me if I wanted to be a Free Mason? Anyway, I left happy as a meadow lark because of how the farmer was quick witted and answered one of the best answers to a Satanist that I have ever heard and say, "Well, I just don't walk that way!" Therefore, how can Christians negotiate with people with a death cult mentality? We can't. And like I said, every day I learn something new and there is never a dull moment in my life even though I live totally alone. And I would never consider becoming a Mason or any other form of Satanist. Power comes to Christians that seek God constantly for the right reasons and in all honesty, and a clear conscience. So Let Us Sleep On that for now. And not all White people are Evil or Wicked.           Respectfully,                                                                                                                                                Ruben N. Gutierrez