She couldn't take the pain of Rejection anymore!!!

Bloggers, I am no counselor for no one in need of mental or social, or medical, assistance. Further, I don't say that I am not qualified to be a counselor, but like Bible Thumping that is not my calling either. However, I do have firsthand experience with a whole of pain and hurt of all kinds personally speaking. And I know how I have had to handle those problems by myself. Nonetheless, my experiences may not be applicable to all peoples' problems for obvious reasons. Remember that I am a man, and my background is predominately old fashion and traditional, and conservative. And what may work for me may not work for younger people with more Liberal views about life. But I still say and believe that what worked for other human beings of the ancient past in coping with their everyday struggles of life then, can still work for us now, regardless of who we are today. I know because I was once a Squad Leader, and at times placed in as a temporary Platoon Leader in the U.S. Army in 1971-'76 after getting back from Viet-Nam. And I had to counsel some troubled young men with overbearing home problems and being lovesick. It wasn't easy to deal with these major problems of theirs, and they sure didn't make it easy on me either. Especially when we have a Mission to fulfill every day that we are in Uncle Sam's Army. It was hard to keep these lovesick and mistrusting of their women young G.I.'s from heading for the hills and going Awol or Deserting the Army, and especially in our Unit because we were needing every man we could keep. Life in the Army was bad enough with having Draftees still among us then, and when one factors in that we were Infantry, that alone is reason to want to be next to the river cooling off. Therefore, when Uncle Sam said, "We need You", that was no lie! Then to have many of these young soldiers to sky up and leave without saying goodbye to no one else was nerve racking because it presented problems with manpower and the Prestine Image that we held of our Standards in the Army. The soldier's life was truly compounded with enormous psychological and spiritual problems to say the least. Anyhow, I saw that by the end of many lovesick soldier's ordeal and taking leave without permission, that they did not take social and legal care at solving their problems back home either. So, it was an ordeal for everyone involved in these peoples' lives. I say that because it is true when it is said that no man is an island. What you and I do or don't do has consequence whichever way we look at this situation. As human beings we are all attached spiritually speaking. So, what happens to you will soon enough trickle its way back to everyone else. Thus, I do have a lot of experience in life and with troubles and problems. Sometimes I still feel that I am stuck in "La Bodega Negra". For me La Bodega Negra is The Wilderness, or The Dead Sea! I mean that sentiment needs no further explanation. But I have to qualify that my life is not stagnant or dull only because of my immediate family who love each other madly. Nevertheless, I pray to find that place of refuge with God where I can be free of all bad and evil people around where I find myself when I am not with the family. So yes, I am afflicted and know many things about pain and sorrow. And I know about being Lovesick too. And I know about betrayals and Rejections of all kinds from those that one loves and wants or needs. Rejection is definitely not a good feeling. It is like coming home early one day and finding the woman one loves with another man. Therefore, with that said let me close with a dream again that I had recently. As the dream appears, I see that I am walking in long single file that was made up with many women and men walking down a hill at night. I see that I am walking at the center of the file as I look at this scene from our backs. And as I walked, I heard a Mexican man's voice speaking from behind me to someone else that I couldn't see either, and he said, "That is the man we were telling you about earlier that could help you heal from the rejection you suffered from the man you loved but that didn't love you. He too has suffered a love rejection from the woman that he loved but she didn't love him. His name is Ruben. Ask him how he dealt with his situation?" It was then that I turned back to see who was having this conversation behind me. And just a couple of people behind me I saw a young Mexican pretty woman in her twenties looking at me and I saw the Mexican man who had been speaking to her standing behind her. Then out of nowhere a Catholic Priest walked up in front of the girl and me fast and grabbed her by her right arm and led her to a Catholic Church Building nearby. It was here that I knew even in my dream state that this dream was coming to an end fast paced. So, I hurried and walked fast to the double woodened front doors of this building, and I knocked, and the girl and the priest opened the doors and stood facing me. By this time the girl had been given a change of clothes, and some one's hands were still putting on the finishing touches to this beautiful light bluish summer dress that looked like a contemporary Japanese or Korean dress. And as I looked dead into her eyes, I said to her, "Look, I was rejected by the one woman that I was crazy in love with not long ago. So, I know how you feel. And she rejected me even after I tried to be with her for several years recently. But let me tell you how I had to deal with that rejection that took me years to heal from. And I know that it will heal you too. What you have to do first is Pray and keep Praying. And in time you will Heal. And You have to Heal Yourself also, you have to let that person go. Remember..., you have to heal yourself. Don't forget that you have to heal yourself!" Here she was excited and kept looking into my eyes nodding and agreeing and saying Yes with her head and eyes and big smile, but she never spoke. And even the Priest nodded saying Yes approvingly to my recommendations and smiled at me too and never spoke. And then the doors were closed by themselves, and the dream came to an end.  So Let Us Sleep On That for now. Thanks again. And please let make a postscript by telling a great adage given to me by a most beautiful and fine middle-aged Mexican woman from San Antonio, Texas who I rejected once not long ago. Her name was Maria Trejo, and I say her name only to give her the Credit for this Adage that she gave to me on the night that I called our thing off. She said this to me sort of hurt as we stood side by side. She said, "Ruben, Lo ques para ti..., pues es para ti. Y lo que es para mi..., es para mi. Si asi lo queres, esta bien." And that was it. Isn't that a great spontaneous truth that was mouthed by this beauty. I just can't forget it! The English translation goes like this. "Ruben, whatever is meant for you..., that is for you. Whatever is meant for me, that is for me. If that is the way you want it..., well..., fine." Do you see that whatever God Almighty has destined and ordained for us, that is for us only. God will sustain us throughout all our difficulties if we only Pray to Him and Praise and Worship and Thank Him for whatever our circumstances. Oh! but Maria was beautiful.                                                                                                      Respectfully,                                                                                                                                              Ruben N. Gutierrez