Connecting the Dots finally for understanding why God was so angry at me once!!!

Bloggers, have you ever had a dream where you were driving in your nice car, maybe like mine...a nice gangster looking car, down a very long lonely highway that only led one way and there were no gas stations for at least one hundred miles going back. And then at the time that you were driving, it was nighttime. Then as you traveled further down this highway... you run out of road and only a vast dark mountainous wilderness lay ahead to your destination. What would you have done? Well, I have had such dream before. And what I did was go for broke and said thanks and goodbye to my car and started walking towards the darkness believing everything was over for me. But I didn't realize that out there in that wilderness was where I would begin to see my life in a new way. However, all that I once held dear to me was stripped away and I was forced to think outside the proverbial box which had me bound only to the materialistic things and this world. Like I said before, I didn't make a conscious decision to change my physical material orientation on my own and decide to seek God like never before. No! God stripped me of the things that kept me grounded and focus on the material physical world and forced me to look up to Him and give Him legitimate answers for why I had abandoned and betrayed Him after all that He had done for me and after I had promised to serve Him faithfully until I died. So, that was the meaning for that dream in my case. I had run out off... the way of life that I had cultivated outside His Will for so many years. And as a result, I lost a lot, and it cost me a lot as well. However, in that wilderness I learned, and I turned back to Him slowly because that is the way He permitted it to done. I wasn't received like the Prodigal son was because this wasn't the first time to find myself eating with the pigs in their pen. So, that is why God kept His distance from me. Nonetheless, I am blessed that God has received me back after all the backsliding I have done. Further, I have left that fanciful world of comfort and the life of excitement in the material world of so many distractions. I could easily be watching movies all day and night or listening to the sounds of music or just visiting family and friends. or doing nothing at all just humming myself to sleep. No! Those things are not me and I have given up almost all of that stuff alone. I would rather be alone and tune in to Heaven and seek God some more while I can. Yes, I still seek God every day. For example, on last Sunday evening I stopped at the Church that I attended last in 2023 right before they started service and visited with a woman there. And I told her that I was still seeking God and that I wanted to speak to Him. And she asked me, "Are you still looking for God brother?" And I said, "Yes, I am." Then she said, "Well, we stopped looking for Him long time ago because we have found Him and He is right here!" And I said to her, "Well, I have to leave now before the congregation meets. And I am headed out to tell those rebellious people outside these walls of the Church that Jesus Christ is Real. And I know that those rebels will never set foot in here on their own. So, I will go and try to find God and ask Him why He won't help you bring young people with strength to help build the Church up like those rich Pagans that lift up Skyscrapers to their gods in the sky at will." And then I shook her hand and said good-bye. But that is what I have been doing since my wife died almost 14 years now. I am driven by visions and dreams that come at me from both sides of the aisle the good and bad because I have straddled the fence for so long. But you see, I have seen both sides now and can judge better than others can about them both. And when I deal with those "Locos" they will see that I used to be just like them. So, they respect that in people like me. They see that I don't think myself any better than them. Yet although I have nothing physical of value, even without the comforts of the material world, I am content with what I have been shown and learnt and what I do have. Sometimes that is what it takes for stubborn people like me, a hard running through God's gauntlet and perhaps hopefully I will stay the course now. Because if the readers are taking notes about what I have been saying lately about the hard deceptions that are invisibly hardwired into our everyday life by many people whose aim is to destroy us, you will see beyond the pale of the physical realm. Moses went out to the wilderness just to hide as well, he didn't set out to look for God, but God was looking for him to teach him the more essential things of life, which is our spiritual connection to Him, not to this world. And what was God's foremost concern at that time, His suffering people who had been crying to Him for help for 400 years in a Country not their own. And it was there at Mt. Sinai that Moses came alive with the knowledge of God's Will through the Burning bush.  But I never had a burning bush experience. What I had was a Voice that said to me "Let's see how many Sun Worshippers are left at the end of this Age." Do people think that God doesn't care for the Souls of all human beings. Yes, He cares. I am living proof that He cares for all Sinners like me. How in the world does a Christian end up in hell and get out alive from such a place if God didn't believe that I loved Him even though I was deep in sin. I loved Him even in that sin riddled life of mine at that time. And He knew it. God knows my intentions even now as I try to explain to people about how some of these visible and invisible phenomena that I see in my dreams are real supernatural occurrences that are intent on penetrating peoples' souls and spirits and bodies, and they are trying to destroy us. And He knows that it is my intent to warn you about Satan's and devils' deceptions and devices like their magical Dots and Squares and Circles, and that tiny little Spark that transforms and becomes anything they want to be. This is serious magic and that is how it is employed against us, either subliminally through our unconscious or subconscious minds or visibly through their physical symbols that vary from everything the Media and literature, Architecture, and the arts have to offer. So, we the people are truly under mass hypnosis and don't know it. And it doesn't matter where those people live at, they are all victims of this mass hypnosis because it is in the air and everywhere and like that invisible spark, it strikes like a blow dart even in your dreams. Thus, the manifestations of the evil vibes that fly all around us affect us in ways not perceivable sometimes by the senses of ordinary earth minded people. Because we are so busy just trying to make ends meet in a violent and wicked world that man has made. And therefore, we don't have the luxury nor the time to try to understand where this evil generates. And to think that it all started at one time way back in ancient times and that system of deception still carries on today among intelligent people who one would think should know better, but it appears as if they don't because Sun Worship continues getting stronger by the day and night all over the world. I will try to elaborate more on this phenomenon of the tiny spark next time to clarify and qualify what I am claiming now. I am glad that I ran out of highway in my dream because that end of the road experience for me was the catalyst that pushed into the dark spaces and there I met and saw things unimaginable at the time for me. It was there that my simple uneventful life was shaken up by the spiritual realty that we truly live in and that governs our every move. I am glad...and I mean it because it is here in the wilderness, that I realized that God is real and is the Supreme Sovereign of all His Creation. And it is here that I acquire supernatural power and authority from Him like never before. This wild place is where Warriors are forged, and Truth is revealed to them by God's angels. And it is here when you finally see the invisible Hand of God protect you from powers that could have made me mincemeat had He not helped me. Here I found courage too, either to live or die, it didn't matter because I know I have done my best for Him. And I continue in that promise that I made once more over 18 years ago on my slow journey back to Him. Imagine, being shown the future like some prophets of old, and seeing how it all comes to an end. Man! That is awful imagery. And to have seen Hell and that Long Tongue suspended in air in those rock tunnels there, will make anyone a Believer in Christ Jesus. Although I walk through the valley of shadow of death...I refuse to die until my mission is accomplished for Him. And if you are a True Consecrated obedient Christian a promise has been made to you and it states, "And the fear and dread of you will be on everything that walks, creeps, crawls, swims, or fly's." So Let Us Sleep On That for now until next time. Peace and Love to those who love to Seek God every day of your life. We just can't get enough of Him.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          Respectfully,                                                                                                                                                Ruben N. Gutierrez